KWANWEI's Blog

Goodbye Blogger

2009-11-06T15:18:00.003+08:00

HELLO!

Yes, i finally created a TUMBLR!
Here it is:

http://www.k-doubleyou.tumblr.com

I believe those who have a heart will auto relink me.
Anf follow me on Tumblr if you have one!

I'll be blogging there often from now on,
Cause O's is almost overrrrrr!
Say hello to Tumblr and byebye to blogger.
I might be back to blogger someday, who know?

FuckFuckFuck

2009-10-27T18:52:00.004+08:00

Why am i even trying to see things from a different point of view?
That's what i find hysterical about myself.

Okay, forget it,
No crying or emotional breakdowns until after exams.
I won't let myself, i promise.

Fucksss,
I don't care, really.

You're a bitch, a really cheap one, who's not even worthy of my hate.

Oh my goodnessssss,
Why are you like everywhere?
Please don't let me see/hear about you anymore.
Even the exam paper has your name, suckkkkks.

What happens when the one who can make you stop crying,
Becomes the one who makes you cry?

18 more days to Freedom!

2009-10-24T15:17:00.005+08:00

Met Siewhui the other day.
Have to cut my fringe, i know.

Crap, i was doing Math, but look, i ended up sitting here blogging.

What are you doing, Kwanwei?
"I'm just taking a break!"

Oh my goodness, it's like i'll be taking the Math Paper in two days?
So so so nervous, i really pray hard that i can passsss!
Science pract was totally screwed,
Broke boiling tube, panicked, gone.

So i'm hoping that nothing goes wrong for Math,
Bring everything i need, calculator don't die.
I don't panic, should be able to pass?

Taking with flash is cool.

I still have alot of photos to upload,
Tanjong Pagar, The Cathay, Grad Ceremony,
Andand, Photos taken with Mr Ongggg!

Studied at Novena's Starbucks with Winteng,
The place is so safe, leave your things there and disappear for a whole day, when you go back, you things are still there!

Okay, don't disturb me, I'M STUDYING.
Should get the 'You should be studying' wallpaper from Illene.

Something about you that's so addictive.

Graduation

2009-10-17T01:47:00.002+08:00

Today's really the last day we are getting together as a whole,
Moving on and saying goodbyes.
Teachers gave us encouraging words, some of which touched me.
I was really touched by Mrs Remesh's one, that she still rmbed us.
I still rmb how much she taught us, and things we went through together.

We sang the Batch Song which was enough to made me teary,
Though it wasn't frequently listened to,
It was the song introduced to us when we first joined the school.
And that was the song that bonded us together during the camp.

Taking photos was the best part.
I'm really proud of this 208 photo but a pity Ms April's not inside.

And Ms Chewwww!

407, will never forget everything we've been through together.

And of course, OUR Ldf <3

More photos on Facebook!

Everything

2009-10-09T20:32:00.012+08:00

Mainly dedicated to classmates
I keep coming to this page hesitating whether i should blog not. I even hesitated clicking on the ‘Publish Post’ button after writing,
Cause all this is too emotional.
It’s like the emotions are taking over me,
I need somewhere for me to say it all out.

Firstly, today's the last school day for us in Deyi.
Not that we'll never go there again or not stay in contact,
Just that the thought of not being able have lessons with my classmates in my class makes me sad. We'll never have lessons in that classroom anymore. Though i'm always complaining how boring lessons were, they've become part of my life routine. And suddenly i don't have to do it anymore.

A week back, i was hearing Cw talk about how upset he is about last day of school, then i started thinking about those fun we had in school, classmates, friends, teachers, lessons, everything! I just feel all weird thinking that we have to leave Deyi soon, taking with us 4 years worth of memories.
Illene said: Don's worry lah, you want, you still got one week!

And today, one week is up,
I wanted to go to school early or something, but failed to wake up early. I used to go to school very very early, just wanted to try experiencing it on the last day. Then at recess, we didn't get to sit at Ldf, cause Jas wasn't feeling well. We didn't spend our last recess at Ldf, i hope whoever takes over that place after us takes good care of it.

Last period was actually Math, quite siannnn cause it's MATH! But end up, when math ended, it really marked the end of everything. Our last greeting to Ms Chew, she cried, and we all started too.

Nostalgia and overwhelming emotions.
I lost control and couldn't stop,
When it was time to leave the class, i didn't feel like walking away.
I guess i've become emotionally-attached to the class.
I didn't expected i would react so strongly to this goodbye.

People might not feel it yet, but cause i've been thinking about it since last week, i feel it even stronger.

Someone said: I would miss my friends, everyone but not the place, Deyi sucks.

I was shocked at my own reply to him,
I said:
No matter how sucky Deyi is,
I's the place where i've spent 4 memorable years in.
If the place was different, everything would have changed.

I hate goodbyes, i swear i hate them,
If people were to slowly disappear from my life,
I wouldn't feel such a strong impact.
Those proper bidding farewells would sure end with a free flow of tears.

Illene's right,

People come, People go.
It's part of life.

Anyway,
Thankyou 407 for all those shitty wonderful times together.
I love you all.

And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche,
Are perfectly right in my eyes.

Photos for Pleasure

2009-10-07T00:23:00.003+08:00

Had superlots of fun with them on Mooncake Festival! <3>

I remember laughing really hard with them for the holding hands thing! LOL!

The Big O's coming in 15 day's time!
I'm actually rather scared, cause i am not that prepared.

I just did one Chinese Compo,
and am going to sleep now!
Goodnights! <3

O levels on it's way

2009-09-29T18:49:00.002+08:00

Yeah, i've been more focused on studies these days.
Less on procastinating, more on pushing myself.

Not that i've been doing proper revision for all the subjects,
But i practically work on them, without bothering to start from basics.
More of practising & asking when i don't know.
As a matter of fact, i've only been doing Math & POA, sometimes English,
Neglecting all my other subjects.

Buttttttttttttttttt,
I've just bought those cards which you use to take notes with Ahbao & Jazzmine. Initially, i wanted notebooks, one for Physics, one for Chemistry to copy textbook notes. Then we decided that cards were better. We've even got those metal rings to hook on to the cards to hold different sections of notes.

I still have Mr Peng's Chinese compre to complete & a few questions left for English. I don't think i'm gonna do the summary. I hate to write summaries. So if it's still early after i complete those two, i will start my notes-copying on my Pink cards!

I need to study.

2009-09-27T14:54:00.002+08:00

I was in a great mood to study,
All the humans in my house seems to be getting in the way.
No i lost all the mood.

I need a room with nothing but white walls for me to study,
One with nothing except my work & with no one except me.

Happy KwanWei

2009-09-22T18:48:00.003+08:00

Some random photo if you don't mind,
Cause i don't want this to be all words.
So here's a Neoprint photo that i didn't upload! Lazy to scan and all.

I remember there was one exam week,
We went to take Neoprints EVERYDAY during the exam week!

Yeeeah, i want to emphasize:

Today was a greeeeat day for for me!

It was okay at school, and okay at remedial,
Then i went to Granny's house,
And met this Ultra-friendly Uncle in the lift!
He even bothered to ask me if i've eaten and all.

It's this kind of people who puts a smile on other people's faces.

Even lunch at Granny's house tasted especially nice!
We even went downstairs to chitchat.
We shared a mooncake.

And most miraculously,
I was expecting some cold shoulders when i got home,
But nope, it was like nothing happened!

Papa's birthday in Jack's Place!

So you can see, i'm pretty much in a good mood today,
In a state that can accept some irritations!

Birthday Boy & Hunger Pangs

2009-09-21T01:29:00.004+08:00

It's Kenneth's birthday,
Yeah i havent bought any presents for him yet.

I actually video-called with him, cause it's his birthday,
Normally i ignore his requests for video-calls.

Celebrated his & Granpa's birthday at the same time yesterday.
Which was when i ate too much of Granny-cooked food.

And ended up throwing up & vomitting away my dinner,
Which i put all the blame on Chivas.
Yeah i admit, i drank too much.
Been so long since i last vomitted, besides yesterday.

I covered my camera cause i look hideous, NOT KIDDING.

I actually hid inside the room and completed two englich summaries,
And two POA questions.

It's quite an achievement for me already.
Cause it's unlike me to be able to focus on work,
Probably it's with the help of bad mood,
ThankYou, you came at the right time!

I skipped dinner,
And now being unable to fight hunger,
I am desperately searching for food.

Hunger is an evil thing.
I think i've just gained weight ,
All thanks to The Instant Noodles!

Fancy blaming my brother for toppling over my father's pot of plant,
Here i am in the middle of the night,
Dropping & spilling things!

Unbeautiful

2009-09-20T18:33:00.001+08:00

You promised me forevermore,
Was it something that i said, or something that i did?

Shit mood

2009-09-20T18:03:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling as good as shit now, so dont irritate me.

Why can't the music get louder?
I hate it when the music is not loud enough for me to get into my own world.

Mr.S

2009-09-19T15:39:00.003+08:00

Presenting...

MR SUNSHINE!

My new pet cactus from Winteng,

So sweet of her to remember that i said i wanted a cactus,

Which was a longlonglong time ago. <3

Cheers me up!

Running the last lap

2009-09-17T23:14:00.003+08:00

I realise my blog suffers from lack of photos, so sorry,
But here're two.

The Le Rouge chocolates, my father bought it on his birthday,
He said it was the most expensive chocolates he had bought.
I thought they tasted okay, though.

I'm currently trying to study real hard,
So almost everyday, it'll be library, library & library.
Please pray for us that we'll have seats or it'll be reeeally difficult to study.
(provided we don't get hooked on the books there!)

38 more minutes to Jenna's birthday,
Happy Birthday, Bitch! (in advance)

Strip, Baby!

2009-09-14T22:55:00.001+08:00

Today's when we started getting back our Prelim results,
Oh and no surprise, my results are as bad as shit.
Sighsighsigh, Kwanwei ah, You've got to help yourself.

In school, i was like totally in my own world,
Just cause i am so anti-communication due to bad results which brought bad moods.
I was firm on not wanting to talk anyone,
So sorry if my attitude towards you was bad or something.

I even went to the extreme of going straight home after school.
But Winteng came over and we carried out our plans.
Let's hope it succeeds alright, baby? <3

Then was tuition,
You dont know how much math i did okay!

Okay, fine,
I admit, i am still feeling pissed & grumpy,
But not that anyone has done anything to upset me, it's just the problem with me.
Might also be, cause my muscles are aching from that long walk from Amk to Yishun ytd,
I walked alone from amk to yishun, was really really far,
Despite the fact that it's fast by bus & train.
And also cause i havent eaten much today,

Wait, Have i eaten any meal today?
Actually, i only drank water & soup today.
And the only thing i ate today was, Mentos.
LOLOLOLOL, I am not kidding.

But yeah, i actually am proud of myself,
Cause i managed to break my personal record of eating Zero meals a day, and it was without snacks in between, unless you call Mentos a snack that can cure hunger.

Gonna sleep (maybe after i've read a bit more of the book) , G'nights all!

p/s: Leave me a tag leh. Maybe i should consider removing the tagboard? LOL.

Take me away

2009-09-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

I really really really want to run away, right now.

Please lah

2009-09-09T17:54:00.001+08:00

I feel the need to say this:

Yes, we think we are very pretty, so what?
At least we are not like you, Judging us, you have no rights, please.
We don't even make comments about you, so how is it that you can't stop your oversized mouth from making ridiculous comments about us?

Changes

2009-09-09T12:16:00.002+08:00

Not Everyone can accept changes.
But regardless of whether you can or cannot accept them, they'll still change,
Because the thing that's ever-changing in the world is change.
Nothing will stop changing, just because you don't want it to.

It's just the way you see it,
When changes come, the best way is to get prepared for it,
Prepare yourself, so that you can best adapt to this change.

It is just so that, the level of getting affected is reduced to the least.
Because when you get affected, your actions get uncontrolled,
It's okay for you, cause the only you'll do, is disappoint the people around you. So whether you wanna disappoint these people, it's your choice.

Of course, everyone changes,
It's just whether they change for the better or for worse.
I know, i have changed alot, maybe i don't even realise some of the changes myself.

Like last time, we were all set on getting into relationships, attracting attention, doing all sorts of nonsense, that was Sec One. Now, seeing the current Sec Ones doing what we have done, makes me feel all disgusted.

Even though most of them are like that now, they don't realise it. Just like how we don't think we're disgusting when we were in Sec One.
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Through these sec school years, i start to treat people differently, I've changed. I didn't understand what's put yourself in other's shoes or treat others like how you want others to treat you last time, now i know. I'm learning how to use these now, like last time, i give black faces whenever i go out with my family, but i hardly do it now. Cause i don't want people to do it to me, that's why.

Though i might not be treating people perfectly well, but at least i can say, i've changed. I no longer just walk away from my friends when i unhappy, i no longer complain so much, like how i used to.
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Problems, they do affect me,
But i learn to set my priorities right, do what's most important, and not sit there and let myself get affected.
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These are good changes, i hope, But yeah, i know, some changes in me might not be good ones.

060909

2009-09-07T18:30:00.005+08:00

Sunday was WintengLove's Birthday!
Happy Birthday, Babe!

Let's hope she loves my presents, i spent alot of effort, okay!

We took Neoprints, it cheated our feelings, dumb machine.

And we had ice-creammmm,
I promised her to have ice-cream tgt the other day i left early.

Went Geylang to pray.
And then we went to Chinatown, somehow i feel that Chinatown's the place for my family bonding. I took photos, practice photography skills.

I'll have a spiral staircase in my future house.

We had Claypot Rice for dinner that day, after a long wait of 1 hour!

I'll come to back Chinatown another day.

BLISTERISATION

2009-09-04T17:24:00.000+08:00

Busying with Birthday cards & presents these few days, guess who's birthday is coming?

LOLLLLL, LWT, you have a date with me on Sunday!

I still have alot more to go!
Oh my goshhhh, do you realise? It's the SEPTEMBER HOLIDAYS now! I didn't realise until, Just!
What am i gonna do? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Let's seeee...

I want to:

1 TRY and do some revision, esp Math.
2 Find one day & go on long distance running.
3 Some shopping, maybe?
4 No harm for a movie, right?

Let's hope after the holidays, i'll proudly say:

I'VE DONE EVERY THING ON MY LIST!

This was another one of the days we went "studying".

That day was REEEEEALLY a special one,
Because we came up with The Plan.
Let's hope our plan succeeds, yeeeeeeeah?

Omg, that day, i tell you,
The things that happened, was really what was written in the Horoscope section!
WT called & read it to me, & i was like @#$%^&*()(*&%$!!!!!!!!!

Some cliche shit,
But we'll be friends forever.

You can skip this.

2009-09-03T14:58:00.003+08:00

Wahlao, this post is going to be boring, you don't have to read it. I don't feel like making it exciting, but the more i think, the angrier i get, that's why i thought i had to write. Talking about copycats or whatever other names you give them, i seriously cannot stand them. Especially when it is people around you, like others, they want to be like you, but cause you are close to them, they try and make it less obvious that they are trying to be like you. I seriously cannot stand it, especially when it applies to me. You want me to see someone who does things exactly the way i do? Like what the fuck can? Like suddenly there's this someone who follows your BEHAVIOUR, your ACTIONS, the THINGS YOU DO, THE WAY YOU TALK, and THE THINGS YOU BUY! Like honestly lah, i really think it's so 'whatthefuck?' Why the fuck would you wanna make yourself look like/sound like/seem like/feel like another person? Even when the person's pretty or attractive or whatever shit, you think by doing things like her, you are her?

What's worse is the person's close to you, then you go 'copy' her, and just pretend nothing happens. You don't know how irritated the person feels lor. Just imagine, like you have your own style of typing, it's YOUR fucking STYLE, then someone just follows YOUR STYLE, then just because you two are close, YOU CAN'T SAY A fucking WORD! Then like one day you wear your own clothes combination, then someday, you see the person with THE SAME COMBINATION, how the fuck would you feel? When obviously, you KNOW the person had seen you in that! And the worst thing, you choose to do something special, cause you think it's fun and different, then SOMEDAY, you see another people doing THE SAME THING! And you know for sure that the person is DOING WHAT YOU DID, and trying to LOOK SPECIAL IN FRONT OF OTHERS! When others REALLY think her actions are so called 'special', you would be so, what the fuck? Like IT'S NOT SPECIAL AT ALL, CAUSE I THOUGHT OF THAT FIRST! YOU MERELY DO WHAT I DID, AND THAT FUCKING MADE YOU SPECIAL?!

People who are guilty of doing all these fake stuff, please stop uh. Cause i really can't stand people doing things i do, saying things i say, and doing things MY WAY! I'm not trying to say to say that i'm great, that's why people are trying to be like me, but i am just showing how irritated i am by all these actions.

Like i always say, those people who are bad, but they show it out, are not really THAT bad. But those who are bad, yet they hide it from you, and try to fake one, are the really evil in the heart ones. Same thing, those people who 'copies' you, they show it to everyone that they are like you. While those evil ones, MODIFIES your actions, until it doesn't seem exactly like yours!

Maybe what i said doesn't make any sense NOW, but when you come across it YOURSELF, you'll know and find sense in what i said.

Chinese Prelims

2009-09-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

Some fuck-uped retarded bitch's big mouth sabotaged everyone today.

Which not only gets their class in trouble,
Other classes got held up too.
This kind of people just shouldn't exist in this world.

I am so gladdddddddddddddddddd,
That the birthday present is one-quarter done already!
I was So Super independent today,

But believe it or not,
I walked from Jubilee to Mrt station with the intention of topping up the value of my card, yet i realised i didn't bring my card, upon queuing up.

My great-grandpa passed away, yesterday,
Rest In Peace <3

Finally, the photos

2009-09-01T14:04:00.003+08:00

Photos taken during Siewhui's Birthday are finally uploaded.
I know the photos are either too big or too small, Blame Photobucket!
They don't have a wide variety of sizes to choose from!

Presenting....

The birthday girl!

This photo below!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
You wouldn't want to know what we were laughing at!

Then this act shy guy came, to be our photographer.
He was 'accomodating', because of our height.

We almost did something unforgiveable, but yeah, it's never too late,
To realise our mistakes.

I don't know what's with me & my sudden urge to update.
But it's not a bad thing, isn't it?

Where are you, my dearest friend?
You were always here for me.

I miss you.

Good Things.

2009-08-31T10:28:00.000+08:00

Good things:

1 I didn't go to school today.
2 No stomach cramps!
3 Grandparents staying over!

Both my parents are overseas, but if you think i have alot of freedom, You Are So Wrong!
My mummy specially asked my grandparents over so that we wouldn't get a chance to create havoc at home. But yeah, more quality time spent with them.

I woke up 6plus in the morning today and accompany granny back home and go to the market.
I think i am oh-so-filial, LOLLLLLLL.
Reminds me of childhood days, where i stayed at her house.
My cousin and i used to accompany granny to the market everyday.

Mummy bought so much instant food to keep at home,
But you think with granny here,
We would get a chance to touch all those instant food?
We would of course eat home-cooked food.

Let's hope Mummy, Ahyi and Kelly come home safe,
And with presents for me!

My father won't be back so soon, i guess.
Hope he won't anyhow eat the food there and fall sick again.
The medical treatment there is hopeless!

I'm going to meet Winteng Love now! <3
So there goes my tuition work, wont have time to touch them!

SiewHui <3

2009-08-30T12:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was SiewHui's birthday!
So, Happy Birthday, Love!

Hope you had fun with us and hope you love my present! (though it's really last minute)
And don't cry, don't think so much!
I Love You!

Here's it,

All the photos another day ohkay, i am just oh-so-lazy.

I refuse to delete those sweet messages,
I refuse to remove you from my favourites, from my life, from my Heart.

Another month

2009-08-28T19:01:00.000+08:00

It's the fucking 28th,
Pardon me for being vulgar today.

Happy, Happier, Happiest?

2009-08-28T16:10:00.003+08:00

I've recieved my new bag!
Like finally finally finally, it arrived.
Let's take a peekture with it.

LOL, i've to remember, this is the bag, that i digged 32$ out from my Beancurd piggy bank for.
Believe me, i was really broke then.
Cause i had a fight with MamaMama, and i didn't get money from her.
We broke the record, by not talking for A WEEEEEEK PLUS!

I didn't go to school today, cause i'm no longer an Amath student!
So i was sleeping so sweetly at home,
While they were busy squeezing their brain juices for the paper.

I had MacD's for breakfast with the girls today!

Then, i went NTUC-ing! with MamaMama!
She is going overseas soooooon! So she'll have to buy lots of food to keep at home,
Just In Case, we die of hunger.

Then when we were queueing to pay,
There was this black-faced-fucking-rude-and-irritating-fugly woman,
She was lining up in front of us.
When it was her turn to pay, she put her basket of stuff on the moving thing on the counter,
And knocked some of our things off the counter.
It's still okay, if she apologised, you know.
Guess what the fuck?
She did not fucking say sorry!

I swear my eyes never left her for at least a whole minute!
Yes, i stared really hard at her for not apologising.

Then after she paid, she thought the cashier keyed the wrong thing,
So she stood there and checked the receipt, when it was OUR TURN!
With HER stuff all on the place where the cashier puts your packed items.
Then the cashier had no space to put OUR packed items,

Then my beloved Mummy started self servicing,
And packed our own things and put in in our trolley.

Then Mummy told the cashier:

It's okay, we can self-service, there are alot of people queueing,
We should not let ourselves stop the Earth from moving.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! So funny i tell you! The cashier was laughing also.
If you can understand, you should know,
My mum was indirectly shooting that woman!

Then i said:

Since she like this place so much, ask her move here and stay lah!

Then she took her stuff and walked away.
SUPER HATE THAT EXTREMELY RUDE FREAKO!

Lovergirl

2009-08-27T17:07:00.001+08:00

Went studying with Winteng, but ended up at Orchard.

Ion is really beautiful.
We'll wear nicenice and come here someday okay?

And we especially love that friendly angmoh who offered to take a picture for us.

It's so much nicer out there at night than in the day.
Look at these cakes!
But i'm not getting married anymore, so forget it then.

How can i not get married?
LOLLLLL, let's see.

Standing right in Orchard road, i asked Wt: I thought you want go Orchard?
I dont know, i was hit really hard by the truth.
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If i didn't meet her, i wouldn't have known.
But now i know, that you don't care.
It's okay, it's really okay, i will not let myself bother,
Nope, I do not want to know who she is, cause, i will stop myself from finding out,
It's not my problem anymore, isn't it?

I don't care, i'm really not gonna care anymore.
But I don't hate you.
I will never make myself hate you.

This is just so none of my business,
I don't know? Pretend I never heard.
Who are you? I don't know you.
What happened? I really don't know.
I don't want to know.
I don't know anything about you.
Wait, i don't even know you.

All i know is, i really dont know.

I don't know why i called, i didn't know what to say.
The feeling was really bad, i cried really hard.
But i'm glad, it's over.

Goodbye

2009-08-26T22:26:00.000+08:00

I've got photos, but blogger's not coorperating.
Forget it, i've lost my mood long ago today.

I want so badly to do well for POA,
But i just had to hear that today,
Which caused me to give up studying for the rest of the day.
Yeah, don't give me all the shit that i had a choice to study,
Cause, You're NOT ME.

You won't know how i felt, right there, at that moment.

Do i still know You?

2009-08-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

What to do, what to do?

I wanna fly all the way to the Moon,
And never come back, ever again.

Does Toothpaste Get Rid of Pimples?

2009-08-24T18:28:00.002+08:00

Does Toothpaste Get Rid of Pimples?

I find this interesting.
Cause last time, i herad people using toothpaste to treat pimples.
Then i thought that it was just crap.

A few days ago, Kelly told me that using toothpaste as facial wash can get rid of pimples.
Then we tried, LOLLL!
Not much effect though, but i think for sensitive skin, the results can be horrible.

Then today, the horrible effects came, for Kelly.
My mummy strongly disapprove us of using toothpaste.
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So i went to check:

The answer to this question is: it depends. Some toothpastes contain ingredients which can help get rid of pimples, while others do not, and in some cases they can actually irritate the skin. Given that there are numerous other acne remedies available, toothpaste should really only be viewed as a last resort. It also usually requires an overnight treatment to work effectively, so don't depend on toothpaste for emergent zit crises.

Roach Attack!

2009-08-24T16:17:00.000+08:00

I found cockroaches around my kitchen first thing when i reached home!
Ewwwwww, really really really disgusting!
And lucky they were small ones, and DEAD ones!
I think they were fogging this morning, but how is it possible that they came all the way 7 storeys? I hate it when they have fogging, cause you'll find alot of dead insects on the floor.
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I don't know if anyone can be as dumb as me, i accidentally left one whole page of Math paper1 blank!
Then i realised it the last minute, and wrote some rubbish.

Social studies paper was like shit, really.
Who would have thought that they would come up with a 911 question?
LOL, but i still chose that qn, cause i only know that one.
-

Math Paper2 and Lit tomorrow,
I still don't have my lit file, lost the whole thing, now i can't study for it.
Have to photocopy someone's file someday.
And hope Math paper2 turns out to be easy,
To compensate for the marks lost in Paper1, really lost hopes in Paper1.
-

I think i'm getting more and more agressive now.
Just small things, and i will feel like breaking down and cry.
What am i thinking?
-

Two more months, seriously.
Then i'll be free.

-

2009-08-23T18:17:00.000+08:00

My godddddd, you don't know how much i hate irresponsible people.
Like they are supposed to do something,
Then just last minute back-out, ignoring the whole thing.

I won't say anything, but i'll remember it.
Cause it's not the first time.
-

I had Ichiban sushi for lunch todayyyyyyy!
Getting fatfatfatfat. LOL, you might not believe, but i think i seriously look pregnant sometimes.
I think i gained weight, no longer 43 already.
-

Tomorrow's Social studies & Math!
So gonna die for Social Studies, cause all the topics suck!
I don't even like Deterrence.

And Math, i didn't even attend the previous Tuition.
So means, i didn't get to practice or whatever.
Dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Just fking study for Two more Months!

2009-08-22T21:35:00.002+08:00

So much for me telling everyone not to wear black,
I wore full black to tuition today, which one of them was a black knee-length pants.

Didn't anything catch your attention?
Knee-length pants eh!
That earned me my "keep it up"s from Bryonyonyon.

Maybe i was somehow 'changed' by what someone said,
Like why show so much of your own body?
If you reveal alot of the top, Then cover up your bottom.
If you show your legs, cover the top then.

Somehow or another, i thought it made sense.
It's so not me, i know.

I finally watched Orphan!
Many thumbs-up for the movie, but i found it scary though.
But some people didn't find it that scary.
Dont know? Depends on each individual, i guess. But i would definitely recommend it to people!
I finally watched an NC16 movie without having to lie and cheat.

But i skipped SocialStudies workshop and Math tuition just for the movie.
All this asshole's fault!
Though he didn't force me, but i still blame him!
For lying to me!

So i shall reveal his biggest secret!
He is actually secretly in love with Toilet Papers through these years! <3

But at least we managed to watch Orphan as planned,
Since longlonglonglong x 100 ago.
I skipped two lessons for your sake okay!
See? Where to find such a good friend, you tell me?
-

Monday's social studies Prelim already!
My goshhhh, i have yet to study for it!
I'm either doing Venice or Deterrence?
Venice is more fun, but it's longer.
Deterrence is much more boring-er, but it should be shorter, i think?
Faster study!
-

You know whattttttt?
I just realised, that i've got alot of star accessories.
I dont know why, i just enjoys buying star shaped ones.
I think i even prefer star ones than heart-shaped ones.
I've got two star necklaces, bracelets and uncountable number of earrings & ear studs.
I think i've thrown away alot,
If not, you'll just faint seeing how much star accessories i've got.

It's 10 'o' crock now,
I'll stop here, g.nights!

Skipping school with an MC

2009-08-20T10:23:00.003+08:00

Yeah, stop asking, i didn't go to school.

Tomorrow's Prelims already, then O levels will come soon.
Then it'll end, and then i'll be freeeee!
Easier said than done, i know.

Today's the first day of the 7th month.
Seriously have to becareful in everything you do, cause they say this is one of the darkest 7th months in so many years.

- Don't hang out your clothes to dry at night.

- Avoid going out at night.

- Girls, do not wear jewellery that has bells or makes jingle sounds.

- Don't wear BLACK!

- Becareful not to step on incense paper.
(If you accidentally stepped on it, pray and say sorry 3times)

- If anyone taps on your shoulder/calls your name, do not turn!
(Or turn with your full body, DO NOT TURN YOUR HEAD ONLY!)

- Don't talk nonsense, cause you don't if you might offend anyone.

- Don't scream and shout for no reason.

Do take note, or you'll be sorry.

Just like Shit

2009-08-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

Alright, ignore this post, cause you might not understand unless your Chinese results are like shit and you screwed up your English oral on the same day.

If both happened to you, then great, cause we're on the same boat.
And we'll probably be feeling the same way.

So much for me going to school when i have an MC,
I still insisted on going to school despite waking up late and knowing i'll be late for school for sure.
And the reason: I want to see my Chinese results for myself.
I thought that this is an important part of my sec4 life, i didn't want to miss it.
My gosh, i got a B3, Merit for oral.
I wasn't greedy, i only aimed for an A2.
Cause A1's too high, my standard should be around A2.
Too bad, life sucks.

Called Mother, she said it was lousy, told me to call my father who was overseas.
Called Father, he told me to decide for myself.
Was at a loss, couldn't hold back, cried.

I swear this is the first time i cried because of results.

After school, i kept all my emotions away, then prepared for oral.
I suddenly remember this song we used to sing in Pri school.
It goes like: Pack up your troubles...
I can't remember exactly how it sounds like.

Back to oral, it's so difficult, But i tried my best already.
I know i didn't perform very well.
Just pray that the examiners are kind enough.

My mind just keeps bringing me to the Chinese results.
I keep thinking that it is very bad.
Cause it IS very bad.
And Chinese is one i have to depend on for sure.
I guess i'll be retaking the exam.

It's like B3 is not that good.
Look, say like you get B3 for all subjects.
L1R5 is 3 x 6 = 18
18 points is considered quite a big number already.

Then what makes you think you can get all B3?
So you see, seriously have to work hard.
-

-I dislike people who calls you for no reason and asks what you are doing.

Cause it's meaningless and a total waste of time. But that would probably depend on who you are. Especially when there's nothing to talk between each other, and you end up with akward silence. Then lame questions like "Have you eaten?" starts coming out.

-I dislike people who are attention-seekers.

I seriously cannot stand looking at them, without opening my mouth to give some comments. Especially those who would do simply anything to get attention, which includes screaming their lungs out so that they are heard or doing something so disturbing that it's almost impossible for people not to look at you.

-I dislike people who fakes a close relationships with other people.

You don't go around trying to act close with people who are obviously not your friends. Especially when it is because of some perticular reasons, then you start talking to the person as if you were friends.

So please, stay away from me if you are like that, cause i won't like you.

It's a tiring day, i'm having a headache now.

Madness

2009-08-18T19:20:00.000+08:00

Rash getting better, i guess?
I don't know if i'll be going to school tomorrow.
LOL, it's like i was given a three-day MC, i should use it what, right?

Sian lah, i hate to say the word 'sian'

But tomorrow's
O level English Oral!

How can i not be sian?
Then have to get back Chinese results.
OhmyZzzzzz.

I'm guilty to say that i didn't make full use of my day today.
I went over to friend's house instead of staying at home to revise,
Or try and make my rashes disappear.

Shall not say who, cause i dont want misunderstandings

Had fun ironing and gossipping.

I'll make sure i take my oral, with fringe pinned, almost knee-length skirt & short nails.
I'll be THe model student, and pronounce my TH sounds.

Agitation

2009-08-18T08:55:00.002+08:00

Fuck blogger, because you're still not back to normal yet.
Makes me lose all the blogging mood i had.

I'm staying at home today, cause the rashes came, at such a goood time!
They were paranoid enough to send me to the clinic immediately.
LOL, and you wont be able to guess how good that clinic was.

Like seriously lah,
The clinic's queue number was 120 when we went in.
Mine was 125, you see it's only 4 patients in front of me.

They skipped one, so there was only 3.
Yet they took like one hour plus, before it's my turn.

The most amusing part was that, the doctor said,
He didn't know what was the cause for my rashes.

He told me to go home and observe, to see if it changes, and come back on thursday.
The was no medicine given.

Then when it was time to collect my Medical Cert,
We stood there waiting for the cert to get signed, one of the receptionist was Texting on her phone.
Like whatthefuck can?

New equations

No medicine + Lousy service + Medical Cert = $16

One 3-day Medical Cert = Sixteen fucking dollars?

-

My parents sent Laila back to the maid agency, cause they think we don't need two maids.
Sukarti has her whole load of things to do.
So means i'll have to do my own things by myself.

One thing i was rather touched by was Laila kept saying,
That my parents are the best employers she's ever had.

My parents left her their numbers,
So that she can contact us anytime she's free.

We'll miss you, Laila.

-

My pink clip was confiscated again yesterday.
Dont have to guess by who.

I seriously am sick of going to school, just purely because i dont wanna see her.

Cause it's like whenever i see her,
I'd be thinking: Ohkay, what's next? Any new ideas on how you can deal with us?

Like what a failure,
You make your students have such feelings towards you.

And she continues to think of new ways to make us dislike her even more.
She doesn't know she now a sadistic freak in our eyes.

-

Should i go to school tomorrow?
My MC is till Thursday, but there's release of Chinese O levels results.
And there's English oral tomorrow!

-

Why are you able to make me feel like that?

Finally 16.

2009-08-12T21:28:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to Myself!
I'm finally Sixteen!
Look at Sweetheart, She's a year old already! Happy Birthday Sweetheart! <3>

Thankyou WeiQuan!

Thankyou Regina, Kally, Felicia Ong the bus!

Thankyou Constance, Ng Jin, KangRui, ChunHeng.

Thankyou Siewhui love! <3

Thankyou girls! This seriously made me want to cry and laugh together!

Thankyou Winteng! <3

Not forgetting Dennis! BLAH! LOLLLL!

-

Had dinner with family at Paramount Hotel on Monday.
Kind of advanced birthday treat.
The place is pretty, the food is greeeeat!

This is some bamboo clam thing, not bad though!

-

Watched UP 3D with Kelly and Sist yesterday.
I'm in love with the movie! It's very niceee!

Some birthday wishes cama rather unexpectedly.
I'm quite surprised that these people remembered.
Everyone, but...
Oh, seriously, forget it. Will get over the disppointments and whatever shit.

Though this year's birthday's just like a normal day,
It showed me who actually bothers.

There's no Me w/o You

2009-08-09T00:12:00.001+08:00

I loooove you! <3

Someone went to my sis's blog to tag, saying that my sis acts mature and acts cute & innocent.
Made me Laugh-out-Loud seriously. As if anyone could act innocent and mature and cute at the same time.
Not considering the fact that mature is very un-cute.

It's 12plus already, so
Happy Birthday, Singapore!
Let's see if i'l have the mood to wear red tomorrow, most probably not.
Red is too loud for me now.

Tuition today was rather productive, i should say.
We worked under serious pressure, and fought against time to complete 2 TPL questions, right Mr Ong? But it was without Bryonyon and Ahbao.
Get well soon alright, both of you? <3

Nope, i'm thinking way too much again, which is totally pointless.
I've decided, I will not do anything or make any choices.
Let fate decide?

When everything falls apart...

With Love <3

2009-08-08T14:46:00.001+08:00

Saturday-

Today's another Saturday.
Have been sighing & sighing.
I managed to skip tuition yesterday, seriously on the verge of crying just cause i dont wanna go for tuition, seriousssssssly didn't want to go. Kept dragging and dragging, then didn't go.

Today's IJJPSK day,
Tomorrow's National Day,
The day after is WeiQuan's birthday.

My birthday is just days away, but still no feeling of excitement.
Maybe's cause exams, Prelims & O's are nearing, that's why birthdays are not much bothered about.

Oh yeeeeeah, i kept think of the song Love Story meets Viva La Vida.
I suddenly like the song alot, like i think the mix is super amazing.
I even reached the extreme of considering to learn piano.
Ohkay, maybe just learn how to play Love Story? LOLLLLL.
I was just listening to it, then sat there and stoned.
If someone played that to me, i will just collapse and die.
HAHAHAH, exaggeration.

Life is seriously so unpredictable,
My sister's friend just had a car accident, like this moment they were still joking, then car accident took place the next moment. It was even in the papers. She's supposed to perform in NDP, which is tomorrow, which means she'll miss it. She's still in the hospital, in ICU.
Though i don't know her, but i still hope she gets well soon.

ILLENEEEEEEEE,
Where are you?
We want the photos we took yesterday!

INTERESTING!

2009-08-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

Today's the ultimate bad day.
You've probably heard me say this phrase for alot of times already.
Cause the thing is, this period of time really suck, and i can swear it's not just a few unlucky incidents. It's a whole lot of shit stuff, my lif is so different.

Sherlyn: Today is a bad day for me.
Kwanwei: It's a bad day/week/month/year for me.

Not exaggerated, cause when i say it's bad, it's really bad.

And woo-hoo, today is just one of the badd-est day in all my bad days.
Cause i just happen to have a teacher, so good that she actually enjoys sabotaging her students, getting them in trouble with discipline stuff.

The scariest thing is when she has successfully thrown the students into trouble, seeing students' upset faces, makes her give that psychotic smile.

Oh, and yes, she has her way of dealing with the students. Cause when students are unhappy over all that sabotaging by her, they don't answer her during lessons. She'll find ways and means, like changing their seats, to deal with them. Cool uh?

But nope, that's not all, you know? She even had the cheek to call her students petty. Cause they were irresponsive to her after she's got them into trouble.

Let's face it, she's just against some of the students here.
I seriously don't see why the shorter skirts 'can go' while the longer (but not that long) skirts get unpicked. It's not that i want to get the rest into trouble with us, the main point here is, this is serious unfair treatment to us. So what if they're quieter/better-behaved/produce better results? Does it mean they can wear micro-mini short skirt (which is way shorter than ours)?
No right?

SO IF YOU DIDN'T GET YOUR SKIRTS UNPICKED, THEN DON'T COMPLAIN OKAY? CAUSE WE'RE THE VICTIMS HERE. YOU SHOULD COUNT YOURSELVES LUCKY THAT YOU GOT AWAY AND KEEP YOUR MOUTHS TIGHTLY SHUT ==

Get ready for something similar tomorrow, i've got a bad feeling that it won't be a good day. Just prove me wrong, please.

I'm feeling sick just at the thought of having to take Mock Exam tomorrow. Sitting there killing my brain cells and forcing out grey hair. I just kill thousands of brain cells from Paper2 today, is there anymore? LOL.
And worse still, there's tuition tmrw night, gonna get a lecturing again, cause i havent touch the revision since last last week! Helpppppp!

Hope something better comes.

-

2009-08-05T22:28:00.001+08:00

It annoys me so seriously when i see someone who knows she doesn't need something, and yet unwilling to give it to someone else who obviously needs it. And with the fact that it originally belonged to the one who needs it.

And i hate people who are so insensitive that they don't know that their over-concern actually irritates you deep down into your skin. They just repeatedly ask, despite several hints of irritation.

Sadly, i wont be someone who says: It's okay, forgive and forget. Cause the fact is, i actually do bear grudges. What you do to hurt me, it's either you get it back from me, or you'll never get the same treatment from me as before.

I know this is just some complaints, don't bother reading it, cause you'll not understand.

Goodnights!

Super cool Grandparents

2009-08-04T16:39:00.001+08:00

I've got a Granny who carries a Guess handbag,
And a GrandDad who listens to Mp3.
Cool eh?

This Sucks.

2009-08-04T15:47:00.005+08:00

It's so many people's birthday today.
Happy Birthday Alcus, Sukarti, Hui Sian?

Sukarti's my maid, today's her birthday.
Very funny, i was on the way home just now.
Then i saw Laila (2nd maid) at my house downstairs.
She was so excited she said: Today's Sukarti birthday, cook alot nice nice food.
Very very very funny! You should've seen the expression on her face.

How Ahbao mistook the fat girl for MH was super hilarioussss!
I told you it's not already! Still keep saying is! LOLLLLLL!
Then she turned around...
[No one understands what i'm talking about]

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!
I managed to scare chiobu today!
YESSSSS! x 1000000000000

This is a nice song!
What If by Ashley Tisdale.
I think i can relate to this song.

I feel weird today, i don't know why.
But i'm excited for our bags!

-It's really difficult having to fake.

-

2009-08-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

I fell asleep while watching teevee just now.
Then when i went to bed,
I couldn't sleep.
Music didn't help, made it worse instead.
Kwanwei, you're so useless.

I'm rather contented today.
Cause i had Subway & MacD for lunch & dinner today!
Fattening, i know, dont have to remind me.
Havent get to eat Subway for as long as 7weeks!
I loooove MacD's seaweed shaker fries so fucking much!
I wont get sick of it even if you ask me to eat it everyday! I'm serious!
Seaweed shaker fries is the Love! <3

I've been seeing alot of double numbers.
And i'm starting to doubt the 'myth' that seeing double numbers means someone is missing you.
I'm seeing to much of it, so much that it seems meaningless.

-

Sometimes,
A friend just comes into your life and create a big impact on you.
Then you'll start to wonder if you'll leave the same feeling on them.
Nothing much, i was just thinking if i mean anything important to this friend.

-

Alrighteys,
I think this time i'll be able to sleep.
I dont want wrinkles at the age of 20.
Goodnights!

No more Vegetariannnnn!

2009-08-03T15:39:00.001+08:00

Today's the first day since i quit vegetarian-hood or whatever.
Oh! And and and, guess what i ate today?

SUBWAYYYY!

Super happy!
Though today wasn't an especially good day.

I made a Taiwan friend on fb ytd.
He added me & talked to me.
Very funny, cause i typed Chinese to him.
Ohkay, i was just entertaining myself.

Mock tests are coming ==
Zzz

-

2009-08-02T20:00:00.001+08:00

I just went for a fringe-cut.
& i feel like shit now.
Cause i think it looks quite bad.
It's not supposed to be so straight,
Now i look like some 13year old girl.

Blogger is Back!

2009-08-02T12:42:00.006+08:00

It's good to see that my blogger's back to normal now.

I've been keeping myself busy lately.
Maybe it's to divert my thoughts to somewhere else.
I don't know,
I feel like i can just drop dead here anytime now.

I feel so weak,
But i know i'm not sick.
Maybe it's cause i haven't been eating much.
Don't ask, cause i can tell you, i'm not on a diet.
I didn't eat a single meal yesterday.
It's only the ice cream and biscuits that gave me energy.

Forget it, don't think.

Friday

Had everyone's most-feared height and weight taking.
Suprisingly, i grew one cm, & i'm just 2 cm away from target.
Oh, and i lost 2kg.
Somehow i keep thinking that they saw the wrong number.

I just remembered,
That was the day i woke up at 4plus in the morning.
Call me crazy or what, i know i am.
That made me feel restless for the whole day.
I couldn't even keep my head up for math remedial.

Then went back home,
Changed and everything,
& went to meet DingHan to go to Plaza Sing.
I know you're surprised.
Cause initially, me & him = no link.
LOL,
But we're friends.
Had MosBurger, his treat.
Then walked around & back to AMK.
He went to find his Darling,
& me, to tuition.

I don't know if this was to cheer me up or what,
But tuition was cancelled that day!
So i called WeiQuan, & we met.
Walked around for quite long.
& he accompanied me to the bus stop.

This photos were taken for some purpose.
I shall not say what.

Saturday

Went to Jasmine's church.
I love the band who played Love Story meets Viva La Vida.
Super cool!

Then back to AMK again.
I walked with Illene to library to find her cousin.
I treated both of us to ice cream.
I had this ice cream craving for quite some time already, finally.

Then i walked to GaryOng's house for tuition.
Oh! when ahbao came,
I realised we were wearing the same thing!
Black tank top & skirt.
You should have seen it!
It was fking funny!
Cause last week, the same thing happened too.
I reached & saw her,
I was like: Eh? You also wear like that?
Consecutive two weeks!
Then we went to buy new crabs for MrOng.

Nope, it's not a spider.

They're crabs!

Ultimate cool-ness!
Especially with the pink sand!
But i seriously can't stand having it to crawl on my hand.

After tuition was to kbox!
Sang our lungs out cause when my Aunt & Kenneth left.
There was only the two of us left.
So Kelly & I had the whole room to ourselves.
Had quite alot of fun.

Then was mood-spoiler.
Recieved a call, had to go home.

-

Today's August 2.
Which means, no more vegetarian for me!
Just now the monk came to do stuff at our house.
Then he said something like: Today's the 49th day, you all can enjoy after that.
He used the word 'enjoy', HAHAHAHAH!

I realised why i don't say anything after so many things have happened.
It's cause i don't want people to think that,
He's that sort of person.
Cause i know he's not.
& i don't to find out that he is.
Or maybe i don't to make myself believe.
Because i used to think he's perfect.

But maybe something happened.
Maybe it's not him.
It might be someone else who told him something.
There's probably some misunderstanding.

But this time,
I don't care,
Let myself think, that he's not that good after all.
Cause i'm choosing the short road, though it's a dark one.

I wont let myself get affected.
Cause i know i'm strong.
And i'm glad i have friends.
I know that, these are all that need.

I'll be happy.

Right Hand Grip Rule

2009-07-30T15:54:00.006+08:00

Look at this!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Click to enlarge, then you'll see this weird looking thing.

Sherlyn was trying to explain to me the right hand grip rule.

Super funny.

She still asked me to raise my right hand,

Which made me look like a retard.

Sitting here & looking at my own hand.

Couldn't stop laughing.

Here's the conversation:
♥, KWANWEI says: that one i dont understand lor!

♥, SHERLYN Fiel Sempre }♥ says: i understand! you want me to explain here?
HHAHAAAHHAHAH'

♥, KWANWEI says: hahahahah! ermzzzzz, nvm
LOLOL!

♥, SHERLYN Fiel Sempre }♥ says:

HAHAHAHHAHAA
I DONTCARE
I WANT TO EXPLAIN HERE

Then she drew the thing.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Oh my gosh,

I just saw 0404!

Then before that i saw 0303!

I realised there's chinese elearning.

& i finished it!

I think i'm left with Chem & Math.

But i just dont feel like touching them

Howhowhow?

Siannnnnnnn,

Back to school tomorrow.

I think there should be height & weight taking.

But so what?

I'm still eating normally.

Hope for a miracle,

That i will suddenly grow up to 158.

Let's hope your date with the principal turns out ohkay! :D

You're hopeless, Kwanwei!

It's too late for you & your white horse to come around.

E-learning

2009-07-29T18:20:00.000+08:00

If it was last time,
I would have gone out to have fun on an e-learning day.
But i was online the whole day today,
Which means i was at home the whole day.
Planned to go out jogging,
But, too lazy.

I wasn't lazing around the whole day at home.
I did my e-learning work ohkay!
I've completed POA & English.
I know it doen't seem very productive.
But you know what?
I did POA twice,
Cause i did the wrong one!
Wasted my 2hours.
It's pretty amazing that i really made myself sit down and do e-learning work.
Though i wasted some time using Fb this morning.
At least i finished two subjects.
I think i'm only left with Chem, Phy & Math.
Literature?
I'm not doing it :/

Time for a break.
I was in the room for the whole day.
When i opened the door to go outside just now,
I found out that i was alone at home.

I'm craving for ise cream now,
Another wanna get for me? :D

-

2009-07-29T00:26:00.001+08:00

Today was suposed to be a special day.
But apparently,
It's not my day today.
First thing in the morning was - late for school.
Practically spoiled my day.

Lessons throughout the day was bad.
As usual, nothing much.

Fast forward to after school.
Had Chem practical.
Made a mistake, re-do the whole thing.
Nothing very amazing.

Now comes the idiotic part.
I went for detention after Chem.
& guess what?
We had to do reflections, on our mistakes.
1. What did i do wrong?
2. Why was it wrong?
3. What will i do?
And the thing is, we have to write two pages on it.
How can i think think of two pages full of words when all i did was coming to school late?

But it was ohkay,
Cause i had entertainers during detention.
Super lame.

The great thing was,
when it was time to go home,
Mdm Normilla saw my skirt & unpicked it.
Spoiled my mood x 1000000

And you know what?
Our dearest Mr Freddy Goh went home without giving back some cards,
So i was one of the unlucky ones.
Who went for detention for nothing.
So sweet of him right?

That's why i say,
Today's so not my day.

But the rest of the day was spent with Siewhui, YuenMan & Winteng.
Not too bad, cause we had abit of of fun.
Amk, Bishan & back to Amk.
Walked around at hub with Alcus & Adrian.
Laughed quite abit.
And back home.

Dont ask me why i typed out everything for today.
Cause i dont wanna sleep,
& i dont know what else to do.

-

2009-07-29T00:26:00.000+08:00

It's You.

2009-07-27T21:46:00.001+08:00

It's Ironic,
How we went one big round,
& ended up being together.

Not Anymore

2009-07-26T17:34:00.000+08:00

Oh great, so great.
I tried finding an excuse for you.
Too bad, you disappointed me.
Congrats ohkay, i guess you've reached your aim,
Of making me angry, disappointed.
Thankyou so much.

Nope, I'm not jealous.
Whoever she is.
I'm not gonna care anymore.

Seriously sick of this.
How i wish i could still say : I'm glad i still have you.
How i wish i could go with Cookie.

Hello Cookie,
Can you take me away?

2 more days, But so what?

RIP Cookie <3

2009-07-26T13:22:00.006+08:00

Today's pretty boring.

Ohmygosh, Cookie died.
Cookie's Jasmine's hamster.
Jasmine called yesterday to tell me.
I remember she was there with us on 080808.
Rest in Peace <3

Today's Sunday already.
My weekend gone again.
Let's see,
I still have got some incompleted work.
Like Chemistry Theory & English compre.

Today's a 'stay-at-home' & 'complete-all-work' day.
Let's hope i'll do my work and not sit here the whole day.

Oh yeeeeeah, there's Social Studies Test next week.
The Sri Lanka conflict - My Favourite!
I think this time cannot refer notes? Or is it still can?
It's ohkay, i'll study.

Enjoy the rest of today,
& back to school tomorrow!

Blogger is Sick.

2009-07-25T08:27:00.003+08:00

Hello blogger,
When are you gonna recover?
I need your help now.
I wanna post pictures.

Oh hello hello,
Another week's gone.
There's like 90 more days to 'O' levels.
Or is it lesser now?
Which means 27 or 28 days to Prelims?
Everyone's starting already.
What are you doing, KwanWei?
Still daydreaming?
You've got to START NOW!

I need to pass Math.
Science is hopeless.

Just got some sort of a lecturing from Emath tutor ytd.
Cause there's not much time left,
& i'm not doing much revision on my own.
He even requested i do two topics on my own each week,
Which is crazy!
Don't i have school work?
Wont i need to revise for other subjects too?
But yeah, i know he just wants me to do better.
Not that i dont want,
But i have to fight my greatest enemy, TIME.

Watching people so stressed up makes me feel pressurized too.
Especially LeeKeng.
Why is she so stressed up?
And why am i not half as stressed up as her?
I know, i'm not working hard enough ==
Hope she gets better.

Problems, one after another.

2009-07-21T16:02:00.011+08:00

It seemed like we took out everything from our hearts and exchanged them.
Felt like 10years since i last met her.
I cant seemed to finish telling her everything.
But we had a great time, together.
At The Prata House.
That was the day when i had 2dinners and 1supper.
Fats are cool, but no thankyou.

Everything is in the way now.
It's killing every happy cell in me now.
The only thing it's giving me is just sighs & more sighs.
Nothing else but makes me age faster.

Yes,
I lied, i really shouldn't have.
I'll only have to face the consequences now.
Lied or not,
I guess the consequences would be the same.
Forget it,
This is fate.
Since it's fated, i wont be able to run away.
It's already happened,
So complaining makes no difference.

What have i done?
Why are problems coming for me one after another?
A problem a day is enough to kill me.

I wonder what's the purpose behind my existence.
He's the only thing thats keeping me on Earth now.
I live for nothing now.

It's only until you're in trouble,
Then you'll start to realise,
Who're the ones that stayed with you all the while,
& who will be with you all the time.

I look like a hyena?

2009-07-17T13:51:00.006+08:00

Guess whaaaaat?
Today's post wont be another one of my usual post.
Which people complain about it being too " sad " or " emo "
By the way, i'm not unhappy over anything that happened.
Just taken aback by how the world is like.
I've found out many things.
I think i'd rather not know and still believe they're perfect.
Enough of this.

Today's purpose of blogging:
I've found out something,
Which i didn't know in my 15years of life.
And that is,
I actually look like a hyena.

Some bitch actually said that i look like a hyena.
Cool right?
I didn't know that i looked like one after living in this world for 15 years.
Oh correction: 15 years and 11months.
And i need a weird-looking 17year old SEC4 to tell me this.
Wait correction again,
She didn't tell me,
She had to say it secretly,
Not too loud, cause i might hear.

And the funny thing is,
I actually found out!
The most amusing thing is,
I said she looks like a cow,
But no, I didn't have to say it secretly,
I'd say it loudly, so she can hear!
*You notice that this is the exact opposite as the large words above?

If you actually read my blog and see this,
Be glad that i actually took time to write this paragraph to you.
Yeah, i called you a bitch,
& said you look like a cow.
I wanna emphasize, you behave like a slut.
The above sentence was written on the behalf of a friend, happy not?
I was actually hoping that you'd confront me about this,
Cause that would prove that you did say i look like a hyena.

I just checked in the mirror,
Do i look like a hyena?
In case you dont know how a hyena looks like,
I've googled it,
Here's a picture of one:

( I've even got this, but i know it's too boring to be read )

Physical Characteristics

The hyena (spelled "hyeana" in some parts of the world) is Africa's most common large carnivore. Over the years hyenas and humans have come into close contact in Africa and, in earlier times, in Asia and in Europe, often leading to mutual predation. In ancient Egypt hyenas were domesticated, fattened and eaten, and in turn humans have on occasion become food for hyenas. Reputed to be cowardly and timid, the hyena can be bold and dangerous, attacking animals and humans.
Female spotted hyenas are dominant over the males and outweigh them by about 3 pounds. It is difficult to distinguish between the sexes in the field because external female genitalia have a superficial similarity to those of the male. Why the female hyena developed in this manner is unknown, but it may have been necessary for them to appear large and strong to protect their young from males, as hyenas have cannibalistic tendencies.

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Such a huge chunk of words,
Even i didn't bother to read it.
The thing is, i didn't get offended by her.
I was quite entertained by the fact that she has to say it without me hearing.
And this gives me a good reason to dislike her.

Hope whoever reads this gets entertained.
Do i look like a hyena?
Laugh-Out-Loudddddddd!

Why?

2009-07-16T17:48:00.005+08:00

What's wrong with the world?
Some things i refuse to believe in.
But the facts are there.
Proving us wrong.
Yes, We are wrong.

The world is cruel,
Not everyone is as simple as we think.
There are many frightening truths waiting for us to discover.
This is only one part of it.
The real world is scary.
Why?

Why can't everything be simple?
The scary truths are making me go round and round.
I feel like fainting.
Makes me wanna cry out loud.

I wanna give up on everything in the world.
Is that possible?
I know it's not.

I'm really really sick and tired.
Of everything.
EVERYTHING.
The same daily routine is killing me.
I dislike school,
I dont want to sit for lessons.
I hate the fact that o levels are coming in just 98days.
Everything seems to be bothering me.
The classroom, classmates, teachers.
I dont want to go to school.
So i'll not see anymore of these truths.
Why are people so complicated?

I dont believe.
I dont want to believe.
I think it's not true.
But it is.

I need a break.

Someone once me,
Take a break, have a kitkat.
Is it that simple?

...

2009-07-15T20:31:00.003+08:00

Arghhhhh!
Super sick of everything alrd.

Ohkay i have to say something before i forget.
Do NOT order anything from the YongTauFoo at BISHAN Junction8's foodcourt!

Dont order/buy from there, unless:
1. You wanna let them get the order wrong, & you get the wrong food.
2. Paid for your food and, your change gets totally forgotten.
3. Get charged wrong amount for your food.

We just went there once, three of us, on the same day,
& they made 3 fucking mistakes.
You're not wrong if you say i'm trying to destroy their reputation
I just dont want more people to have to tolerate their mistakes.
It's super irritating kay.

The two woman, i believe their from china [ from the way they talk ],
Were busy talking & talking & talking,
That they gave me the wrong soup.
You should have seen the way they prepared the food.
I told them it was wrong,
They poured away the soup,
& added the correct one [ curry ] in.
So equals to my noodles were soaked in soup, poured away,
& then had curry poured over it.

For the 50cents they overcharged Sherlyn,
I had a @#$%^&*(*&^%$#@ conflict with them.
Yeah, i got a little too angry over it.
If you dont wanna get pissed,
DONT BUY THEIR FOOD!

Sorry to their boss: It's your luck to have such workers. Too bad.

Look backwards.

2009-07-14T21:22:00.002+08:00

Mistake is the only word i have for you,
Disappointment is the only feeling i feel towards you.

You made me so disappointed when you wrote that.
Led me thinking that it was a total mistake.

You'll never believe who this is for.

Life's such a Bitch

2009-07-13T20:33:00.003+08:00

I...
Am currently studying for social studies test tomorrow.
HAHAHA! The pen is so heavy.
But i havent started writing.

Guess whaaaaat?!
I was not late for school today!

You don't know how happy i was to walk in the back gate this morning.
I was early enough to get in by the back gate ohkay!
But when i reached school...
I was half dead during lesson.
Super pathetic.
Time passed super slowly...

& you know what?
During the weekends,
Time passed so quickly, that the two days seemed almost non-existent.
I'm not exaggerating kay.
Plus, i did not do anything much during the two days.
I can't even remember what i did on Saturday.
It really is like the two days were never there, had never passed.
& yet just one hour sitting in class was like...
Even longer than the two days.

Oh yesss!
They have this Carpe Diem thing,
& believe it or not,
There's only 101days left till the dreaded 'O's!
Everyone's studying already,
You've got to study too, Kwanwei.

2009-07-11T16:48:00.003+08:00

Hello!
My mood has just increased to 100%
So i decided to blogblogblog!

First, I want to show you all this:

HAHAHAHAHAHAH! Watch it if you understand hokkien.
It's about two kids,
The younger brother lost the elder brother's toy.
Then they both quarrelled.
Their conversation's super duper uber funny!

I wanna tell SimHongYi,
ThankYou!

Reason:
He tagged my blog to cheer me up,
Then he sent me a message saying that he tagged 3 times so that i would only see his tag.
Seriously made me Laugh-Out-Loud!
& he's my very good listening ear.
ThankYou! ♥
You've got to study hard ohkay?
Don't be sad already!

I'm glad things are finally getting better.

New Blogskin

2009-07-10T15:35:00.003+08:00

I've changed a new blogskin.
Honestly, i don't really like it that much.
But i just want somethig new, i guess.
Bad thing about this: font colour.
It's so difficult to read!
So i'll change my font colour everytime i blog.

Today's another unlucky day.
As expected, i was late for school again.
The next time i'm late, they'll take action.
Call parents? Detention?

First period PE lesson,
Actually didn't feel like playing,
Cause it's captain's ball,
Fyi, we played it last weeeeek!
Then decided to play, cause i don't want to seem like an idiot sitting there when i'm not sick.
And guess what?
The ball hit my fingernail,
& it bled.
Super painful, but too bad, unlucky!

School's already bad,
Tuition later,
I wonder what's coming for me next?

Left? Right?

2009-07-09T21:19:00.003+08:00

Fuckkkkkkk. ( i know it's a bad way to start)
What the hell am i doing?
I don't know, it's super meaningless.
I mean life.
Everyday's the same, i dont feel like waking up to find myself doing what i did ytd.
It's so not fun at all.

Everyday feels so bad recently.
Especially today- with the whole chain of bad things coming right at me.
I don't care.
Can run, but can't hide from the unlucky stuff.

Like today,
I was awake, but i just don't care.
I dont want to go to school.
I lay in bed until 7 then i finally stood up.
Cause they kept waking me up.
Left home at 7.30 to school.
Stepped into school,
First thing: Got screamed at by Freddy.G
You know for what?
Yes, for improper attire.
I didn't even bother to answer a single shit back.
Everything tuck in & went to stand in quad.
And that annoying fly refused to leave me alone ==
Unlucky not, you say lah?

Fast forward,
Recess time, i stood at the last stall when i saw Ahbao & Jenna walking over.
I was staring at Ahbao,
& my contacts fell out for no reason.

Then was Karasi's lesson,
Sit in her lesson for an hour, & you'll understand what's boring uh.
Teaching us link-less things.
Like: "What kind of essays are literary essays?"
As though exam they'll give you an essay & ask whether it's a literary essay.
==

Everyone left for oral & there were only 8 pathetic students in class.
Imagine that, how weird?
We survived through VE & math lesson.

Then it's those 'go straight home after school because everyone's not free' day.
Planned to do work,
Yeah, you guessed it,
Plan failed.
Today's seriously a restless day, where you feel that no work can be done.
I hate today.
It's 0907, i'll remember you for being an unlucky day.

I've found a nice blogskin already.
At least something i can accept.
Change it someday.
Might be tomorrow.

Sigh . Sigh . Sigh . Sigh . Sigh . Sigh
Don't ask me, nothing's okay yet.
Forget it.

Thankyou for making me feel this way.
Thanks yeah.

Whaaaatever.

2009-07-08T21:29:00.004+08:00

That's it, I off-ed my phone, i dont care.
I'm not gonna care anymore.
It's not your fault,
It's my fault okay, anything you say.
I don't care.

Oral today, the topic sucks lah.
I don't know if it's cause i'm in a super bad mood now,
Everything's irritating me.
I wanted to blog about oral & how funny Bryon was.
But i totally lost mood okay.
Whatever, Anything, Up to you, I dont care.
Fuck everything ==

Dumb-ness.

2009-07-07T15:58:00.002+08:00

Okay, a super dumb thing.
I know i've repeated this for many times.
But still, I thought oral was today?
I seriously thought oral's today!
I even blogged about "today's oral" yesterday.
So i wasted my excitement.
Now, i can really start getting excited for tomorrow's oral.

But lucky it's not today,
Cause i didn't bring my Entry Proof to school.
I'll bring it tomorrow.

Talk about stupidness!
We were having POA lessons in school.
Ms Lee gave out some worksheets when she came in.
Then she started going through things.
It was some T-accounts thing.
Then i naturally used the worksheet she gave to copy down what she wrote on hers,
Thinking that it's the same.
I totally didn't realise/know/think it was the continuation of last week's worksheet!
Laughing at myself, i took out last week's one.
Then i realised Ms Lee was going through last week's worksheet,
Not the one she gave out!
But lucky, i overheard,
I wasn't the only blur one.
Kangrui did the same thing too!

Hurrrrrr,
Sherlyn, he replied already.
I mean, he called.
I scolded him like craaaaaazy.
" Why so long then reply? You know i wait very long not?"
He was like: Sorry sorry
LOLOLOLOLLLLLLL!
That asshole thought i had remedial.
So he took his own time to eat lunch & then call me.
Too bad, by the time he called,
I was home already.

Stupid blogger.
Don't know what's wrong with the image uploader.
So i couldn't use it.

Look!
The safety pins went one whole round around my skirt!

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Then this one,
Your best friend Sherilyn (it's not typo),
Kept on adding to my paper.
Then she formed a 'J' =..=
HAHAHAHAHAH! Tryyyyyyyyy >>> =..=
Super funny!

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#$%^!&*($@*#^&**!

No, it's not red nail polish!
It's blooooood!
I went to cut off the dead skin or whatever.
Then realised it was bleeding already!

-

Lunch with Mummy.

He was showing some kind of stupid face to my mummy.
LOL!

Lemons!

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I took my house lift,
Reached upstairs then i saw that they already put up National Day decors!
YAY!
AUGUST is hereeeeeee!
Yeah, you know what!

Happily Ever After <3

2009-07-06T21:41:00.003+08:00

Back to school tomorrow.
I can officially declare that i did not touch any of school's work during the holidays.
Not that i'm that busy.
But just didn't have extra time.
Okay, and mood.
Saturday & Sunday was bad, really bad.
I was so unhappy that i couldn't sleep.
Both nights, i have to force myself to go to sleep by listening to music.
But it's okay now! :D

Chinese O level oral tomorrow.
Wish me luch okay!
& pray for me that i get so good topics for conversation.
Plus friendly examiners, pleaseeee!
Note to self: Don't neglect any one of the examiners.
I've trimmed my eyebrows.
So i'll most probably pin up tmr.
I cut my nails, but it's still long to others.
I alrd find it so short.
Too bad, for the sake of my oral,
For the sake of my future...

加油! ♥

Compromise & Sacrifice

2009-07-05T20:20:00.002+08:00

Horoscope for the day says:

You may have to relax a little bit as you move through the day, because your partner isn't going to have nearly enough patience to let you do everything you want. Compromise is the word of the day.

So fucking true can?
Compromising is not that easy.
Especially when you're trying already,
& he doesn't see it.

What makes you think i'm not serious?
Why can't you be more understanding?

Can anyone tell me what to do next?
I really don't know what to think anymore.
I definitely wont let it end here, just like that.
Pleaseee, hope it gets better.

Yeah, i quarrelled with John.

Hello sky,
You've been raining the whole day.
You're making me moody.
Please stop ohkay?

I cannot find a nice blogskin.
There are no more nice blogskins.
I should learn to make my own, or let my blog die.
Maybe i should remove my tagboard too.

Please Dont Let It Vanish

2009-07-04T21:23:00.002+08:00

I tried taking a photo so that i could upload it here.
Too bad, none of the photos i took turn out nice,
So, too bad, it's not fated that i have a photo in this post.

Everyone's abandoning their blogs.
Should i do it too?
Cause the more i blog, the more i dont see any point in it.
But if i delete it,
I'll find no other place for me to say what i want & vent all my anger & complains.
Maybe i'll see,
I'll blog when i feel like it.

I keep thinking if i should say anything or do something.
Cause i feel that i ought to help.
But if i do too much, i would seem like a busybody.
I really cant stand seeing it break into pieces & do nothing.
I want to save it,
But who am i to do that?
I have a strong feeling that it's a whole misunderstanding.
I think he's innocent.
Someone must have spread those rumours.
Slap that fucker.
I dont want to stand & watch everything disappear.
I dont want her to lose him just like that.
Something must be done to save the regrets.

I dont know why i'm so affected.
Maybe's cause this concerns my friend's happiness.
I want my friend to be happy.
I dont like it when such things happen to my her.
Be strong ohkay, girl?
We'll be with you.

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2009-07-02T21:15:00.003+08:00

Have been asked to update.
So here's a short one.

Life is seriously getting meaningless.
Time passes so slowly in school, it's like hell.
It's like Jasmine & I have to sit there & calculate every hour and minute left until dismissal.
Ocassionally, you will see one of us using the calculator & then we'll show it to each other.
Yes, it's the time left until school's over.

Super lame, i know.
But we've got no choice.
Lessons get too boring at times.

Then i'll hear someone telling me,
It's only a few more months,
Then i can enjoy for all i want.
But now time is passing so slowly.
Every minute in school is a torture [excluding that 30mins of recess, of course!]
I want time to pass faster,
Yet i dont want O levels to come so quickly.

O level chinese oral's next weeek!
Wtffffffff?
John's taking it tomorrow.
Jiayou alright! <3

I'll be sleeping before 11pm tonight.
G'nights in advance!

Chatting On The Phone Till Midnight

2009-06-28T18:12:00.004+08:00

It's ultra fun to talk on the phone,
Especially when the whole house's asleep.
The amount of fun depends on who you talk with.
ThankYou! ♥

I've fallen in love with the lappy camera.

All the best for your AYG, sister! ♥

School's starting tomorrow.

Everything's coming back to us again.

Homeworks, tests, school rules, stress!

A few months down, we'll be sitting in the hall, taking the O levels.

After all the lecture & motivation,

I should seriously stop daydreaming,

& start to wake up.

加油!

Back Again- After Granny's Funeral

2009-06-23T18:38:00.005+08:00

I'm back!
Life's back to normal again.
But i cant seem to keep with the pace.
Cause after so many things had happened,
I realised that i've changed.
Ohkay maybe not that much.

I dont know,
Maybe it's cause i've lost contact with the world,
As i've been busy with Granny's funeral & stuff.
Yeah, some friends may have heard,
My granny had passed away.
That one who used to live with us.
It was really sudden, an unacceptable fact at first.
But still, have to get used to the fact that she's already gone.

I admit that i used to dislike her.
Maybe i would have used the word hate in the past.
I remember when i was young,
I would go to her house every weekend.
But the thing is, i hated it there,
The people, that house & the feeling that i dont belong there.
But my parents stayed at that house, & i stayed at the other side granny's house.
Then everytime i go back there every weekend,
I would keep myself in my own world & shut everyone out.
I dont talk & interact with anyone.
Everyone, especially my father would be very unhappy with my behaviour.
That's why i'm not close with my father's side.
I dont like my relatives on my father's side,
& things between them & my family are rather complicated.

Granny passed away last monday.
I went downstairs with Mum to get HorFun for her,
Then when we reached home,
She was already not responsive.
But it happened quite often.
So we wasnt suprised.
They gave her honey, in case it was low blood sugar.
But it didnt work.
We called everyone else,
& i called 995.
When the civil workers, or whatever you call them, reach,
She had already passed away.
It was 20:14 on that night.
It happened so suddenly,
We thought she still had a few months or years.
But she left peacefully,
Without struggling or anything.
Only my auntie, my mum, my siblings & i were there.
Oh, and the maids.

Then everyone else came,
All cried like it was the end of the world.
Then they contacted this man,
Who helped us contact the casket.
They brought my granny back that very night,
In case anything happens to the body.
I heard that after a period of time,
If we touch the body,
The skin will come off, revealing the flesh.
I also heard that they would bring the body back to drain away the blood,
& maybe replace it with some chemical thing.

The second day,
They brought the body back,
With makeup on.
Then we helped her put on her jewellery, new shoes & everything.
& then, yeah, into the coffin.

Then for the next two or three days was just at the funeral.
Thanks for friends who came.
& thanks Mr Ong.

& then the last day was sending the body off.
That day was when everyone cried the most.
The last time we saw her face before they closed the top part of the coffin,
Everyone cried, especially my auntie.
She cried until she almost fainted.
After that, it rained.
When she stopped crying, the rain stopped too, amazingly.

Then we set off to Mandai Crematorium & Columbarium.
We stood at the viewing hall,
Seeing the coffin being pushed in.
My auntie screamed & screamed.
& yeah, she fainted again.
It's impossible not to cry.
Then we went back to AMK to settle ramaining stuff.

The next day was to collect the ashes.
I used to think that everything was in powder form.
But actually it's just pieces of bones.
My granny's bones have a slight pinkish colour.
But most of them have already turned black,
Due to her over-consumption of medicine.
They said that the reason why her bones have the pinkish colour was cause she was kind at heart.

Next was to the temple at Bishan,
To put her ashes there.

I am now a temporary vegetarian for 49 days.
Sounds easy, but it's not.
If i go to school, it means no burger & no tuna sandwich.
What can i eat then?
I wonder how Amala survived 16years.

Ohkay, enough about all those.
Just now this guy on msn talked to me.
Talk about him...
He started off with a 'Hi',
So i '?' him.
He said his name is Marcus & asked if i needed money.
I know it's something dirty.
But out of curiosity,
I asked: You wanna give me money? ==
He said yes, & said 'blowjob'.
I felt so angry,
That i scolded him.
I also told him to fuck himself to death.
His email add is : mt.is.hell@live.com
He has now changed his msn name to: blowjob/sex/petting in exchange for cash.
& guess what?
His personal message is: conditions applied.
LOL!
I mean like he just wants to satisfy his sexual needs,
What conditions would there be? ==

I heard that there's no more extension of the school holidays.
Such a mood-spoiler.

I know this post is super long,
Who would have the patience to read everything?
But i just feel like writing.
Even though i've already wasted three-quarter of the holidays,
I still dont feel like doing anything meaningful of educational.

I've applied my transparent nail polish w/ glitter.
I've actually applied it last monday,
But cause granny passed away,
I was to remove everything,
Including my toenails which was nicely decorated with stickers.

Anyone knows what time is it now in Taiwan?

Another Saturday.

2009-06-13T11:01:00.002+08:00

Ohkay, let's see...
Plan for today's to meet the two bitches, buy that,
& then go for POA tuition.
Another normal saturday.

Yeah, he's actually right,
Shouldn't care.

We were so close to it,
You had it,
But you lost your chance,
Your actions disgust me.
So blame nobody else,
But YOURSELF.

Bright & Early

2009-06-12T08:32:00.003+08:00

Good morning,
It's really early.
I got up at 6plus this morning.
Cause i slept at my aunt's house yesterday.
& in case you dont know, i wont sleep well at anywhere except my own bed.
Unless i get used to that place.
It's always like that at camps or when i go travelling.
But the good thing is, the second night is always better than the first at camps.
Cause i get more familliar with the surroundings.

But we didnt drink alchohol ytd night.
Cause my cousin has got rashes due to either allergy or the over consumption of alchohol.
Too bad, we'll drink another day, i hope.
Mummy disapproves us of drinking too much.

The other night,
We drank quite alot.
Imagine: 3girls clearing 1whole bottle of white wine,
In addition, we had 2 more bottles of Jap wine mixed with Sprite.
That cause my sister to vomit out her only meal that day.
Super pathetic.
But the thing was, Kelly & i didn't even feel the kick from the 3bottles.
I was only very " zang"
LOL! They know what it means.

Oh yes,
I didn't realise that it's already friday.
Cant exactly say it's fast.
I guess it's cause i made myself busy.
Plus, he did text me,
& of course i replied.
How much does global messages cost?
Don't ask me.
LOL, if the bill comes, i'm so dead.
I'll only end up paying it myself.

Gosh,
My appetite is increasing.
I ate a full three meals ytd.
Something i dont usually do.
I went out for HK food with sister for breakfast ytd.
& then till late afternoon, We went out again to buy lunch.
& on top of that, we bought chips, cup noodles & drinks in case we get hungry.
Yeeeeah, if you realise, it's all instant food.
I dont know about other people,
But i sure love instant food.
Like campbelles' soup, instant porridge & instant noodles.
Cause there're instant & ready within minutes.
Made for people like me.
& then after that late afternoon lunch,
I went to auntie's house to have dinner.
It's obviously crazy.
I can predict that when June ends,
& everyone's ready to go to school,
I'll wake up to find out that my school skirt wont fit!
So....
I have to choose:
a) go on diet,
b) eat lesser
or
c) exercise!

Okay, i choose (b),
Saves me all the trouble,
But only, it's not that effective.

I want to change my blogskin.
This looks so unlively.
Especially with this post that has nothing but words.

2009-06-10T15:23:00.004+08:00

Stupid Blogger,

All the blogskins cannot work

So i have to change back to the old one.

I hate you!

I watched the Hannah Montana movie yesterday.
& I liked it!
Jasmine, go watch it!
It's niceeeeee!

New Blogskin- Third day

2009-06-10T00:14:00.002+08:00

I've changed my blogskin.
And yes, i know my navigations are not working.
But i don't care.
Maybe i'll try to see if i can slove it tmr?
Or change another one.

Two Weeks from now

2009-06-07T17:29:00.003+08:00

It's only been a day,
& yet it feels like a hundred years already.

I'm really really really bored.
Not that i've got nothing to do,
But it justs feels boring.
Now i understand what Cecilia said,
When today comes, time will start to pass very very very slow.

Don't worry,
I'll do everything i promised,
& not go to those places.
Oh, & no renovation for my heart for sure.

I'm super duper uber boreddddddd,
I guess i'll just keep changing my nail colour until two weeks has passed.
Because i want to find something to do.
The last colour would be, transparent with glitter.
I dont find it nice,
But i'm starting to like it, i think?
No choiceeeee!

I'm so excited for that day!
When we are going to watch many many movies at Jasmine's house!
But it's the third week leh!

But this holiday's meant to be used for studying.
So maybe practising a bit of math will help?
LOLLLL!
Oh yes, & my english file's still not found.
Think i really need to borrow someone's & photocopy all the papers.
Craziness!
In case you dont know, the english file is a ring file,
& it's so thick until the rings have to be forced closed with all the papers inside.
I should have hard time sorting everything out.
Goodluck!

♥ John's

4th June/ 5th June

2009-06-06T10:13:00.009+08:00

4th June-
After study camp,
We skipped English & went to have lunch at MacDs'
Took framed-photos
But i refused to take any.

Yeeeeah, loser lah.

♥ 5th June-

Happy Birthday, My dearest Sister! ♥

We tried to trick her by saying we didn't buy any cake,

But Ahma & the kids were the spoiler,

When we were trying to bring the cake out.

Ahma: Faster sit down, later want cut cake already.

Kenneth: Oh! The cake Mango flavour one!

Spoiled our supriseeeee!

I was buying the birthday cake with Kelly,

We couldn't resist the sale,

So we bought 2 tops each from amkhub.

She spent over 100dollars ytd.

Went over to Ahyi's house at night,

& drank wine like crazy.

There was only three of us- Me, Kelly & sister.

Guess what?

We finished one big bottle of white wine & one small bottle of red wine.

But we were not really drunk,

Just high.

Ran into Kelly's room,

& talked our hearts out.

Hope everything will turn out fine for the both of them.

Time will pass very fast,

Dickson will be out,

& Sky Dragon will be back.

Have to cherish okay?

No regrets.

Sister,

I've told you everything i wanted to tell you for the past few days.

I tried my best to give you advice.

Despite saying he doesn't care,

You have to put in effort to save that relationship.

I know i've repeated this for like a hundredth time already.

But i really think you have to cherish more.

I'll get the pictures form Kelly soon!

I want that sunset picture!

My blog has been lacking of pictures since years ago.

Two week starting count from tomorrow.

You'll have to miss me.

Seriously,

2009-06-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

When it rains, it pours..

Wants & Needs

2009-06-04T14:00:00.007+08:00

OHMYGOSH!

Can you believe it?
It's the Great Singapore Sales now!
I wanna go shopping!
I've got so many things i want to buy.
But but but but,
No money!
I super hate the fact that i'm still a student.
Or i would already have got myself a high-paying job [not possible given my level of education]
Maybe marrying a rich man might be a better idea?
LOLLLLL!
If i have lots of money...

Yeeeeeah,
Money makes the world go round.
But money is not everything, right?

But now,
I got super lots of things i want to buy!
Including that M)phosis dresssssssss!
Super pretty!
Then that IlleHe shoot-ed me directly by saying: you got chance wear meh?
I totally got nothing to answer her lah!

Hurrr,
I think i should slap myself,
But at least, i'm not asking for diamonds, right?

If only i was a millionaire...

♥

I seriously cannot tolerate seeing atention-seekers.
Especially those who enjoy getting attention by sitting somewhere,
Where the whole world can see her & pretend to cry her eyes out.
Like why in the world would you want every single one there to see you crying?
For that one & only reason,
To seek attention obviously.
Makes sense doesnt it?
Maybe you can take a suggestion from me,
Cause i think it would be much much effective,
If you go right up to the stage,
Use a microphone with volume turned to the max,
& cry for all you want.
That'll maybe get you the attention you want.
I dont know why i hate you so much, though i dont even know you.
Maybe cause you're my friend's boyfriend's girlfriend?
Dont have to guess what that means, cause there's no meaning.
LOLLLLLLLL.

-Why do you have to go away? ):

A New EVERTHING!

2009-06-02T20:34:00.002+08:00

I shall not & will not care anymore alright?
Whether it's two hours later or three hours later,
Or maybe a day,
I will nver get myself to fuss over it anymore.

Oh yeah,
It's great that my laptop's back,
But i made a usage limit for myself so that i wont sit in front of it the whole day.
Dont know if it'll work.

I know you're expecting to find me complaining about that,
But but but,
To your great disappointment,
I shall not do it.
Today's already a badbad day,
Will not make it even worse by complaining.

I miss those days.

A Blue Moon

2009-05-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

I've changed my mind,
Maybe i should really update my blog.

To J.T.
Old Cow, cheeeerup alright?
Dont worry, you wont go crazy!
I will friend you okay?
You still have me!
I will never fly away, i promise.

This post is also for two other pple, A & B.

A-
Please, you've seriously got to change.
You're only making more & more pple dislike you.
It's not only us, you know?
Everything, it's only done for you & yourself.
You dont care about others.
You're super self-centered.
Sometimes i feel like i can read your mind,
Your lies, take them back.
I dont need them.
Is lying for no reason really that fun?
I think you should quit this habit of yours.
& your desperate acts,
First it's this, then it's that,
Make up your mind who you want flirt with, alright.
So many at one go, & you have to lie to cover it.

B-
Your attitude, you know it yourself.

After a long time

2009-04-25T14:35:00.002+08:00

Finally, you're not seeing The Climb anymore.
No, my comp is still not okay yet.
I'm at my auntie's house.
Cause when i went home just now,
There was no one at home.
& too bad, i forgot to bring my keys.

Went to fb,
Soooo many requests.
LOLLLL.
Clicked like crazyyyyy!

I've got so many things to do,
So many tuitions & remedials to attend.
Superduper stressful.
Mid-year exams're coming.
Then after that will be Chinese 'O' levels.
Followed by Prelims.
& finally that dreaded 'O' levels.
Faster overrrrrrrrrr!

Everything's so mixed up now.
Here abit, there abit.
Now there's no directions to follow.
What to choose? Where to go?
I choose not to care, i guess.
Dont ask me anything, cause the answers will all be 'i don't know'.

I was talking to a friend,
Then he say: life really very boring, worse than animals.
LOLLLL!
Super funny!

To Winteng: Sorry girl, I couldn't meet you on both days you asked me out. Sorry yeah. We'll meet soon yeah?

Problems

2009-04-08T18:44:00.001+08:00

Another's here when one's yet to be settled.
I see so many coming my way.
But i can take this.

Look Forward

2009-04-07T15:54:00.002+08:00

Guess whaaaaaaaaat?
Tomorrow's IJJPSK DAY! ♥

Actually what she said made sense.
I'm having tuition later,
What a mood-spoiler.
There's social studies test for me, Constance & Regina tomorrow after school.
Super duper siannnnnn.
Havent even touched the notes yet.
If i'm not going to study ss now,
I'll have to study it after tuition later,
Which is like 10plus?
Oh my godddddddddddd.
I woke up at 5.30 in the morning today okay.
Just to write my compo.
Unbelieveable, but i really did.

I've yet to make the cards for the girls!
Seriously dont think there'll be enought time.

Cookie . Pocky . Cookie . Pocky . Cookie . Pocky .

School

2009-04-06T16:09:00.002+08:00

Forget it lah.

JasmineLim is going to kill me for thinking so much.
But she loves me too much to do that, right? ♥

I took 268 with Sherlyn,
Planning to go to ahma's house.
Upon reaching there,
I suddenly remembered that i have tuition in the evening.
What a mood-spoiler ==
I walked all the way home kay.
Wanted to meet Pohee & Jenna,
But was afraid that my mood will spoil their mood.
So thought, no, better not.
& went home instead.

There's a new maid at home!
I love new members!
Guess what's her name?
Dont think you'll get it.
Her name's Threeee!
Ahbao, her name's Threeeee!
No, i'm not joking!

Sometimes, overdoing things might cause reverse effects.
& i think it is so true.
Maybe it's my fault.
I'm so sorry you had to keep the promise you made,
I'm so sorry you couldn't do what you want because of me,
I'm so sorry i replied you in that way,
I'm so sorry i didn't say anything nice,
I'm so sorry i didn't know i had to say something nice,
I'm so sorry i didn't know it was my fault,
I'm so sorry it's all my fault.
I'm so sorry i made such a big mistake,
I'm really sorry.

Sunday!

2009-04-05T15:19:00.002+08:00

Today's a happy sunday!
Although i got disturbed first thing in the morning.
Brought the two kids to swimming,
& went to hub with Cinderella's maid [my sister]
LOLLLLL.
Got my handphone pouch,
Have to treat it better, it's going to be down with some skin disease soon.

I'm really much now,
Thank you whoever who encouraged/adviced/cared about me.
It's really when you face troubles,
You'll realise who're the people who really cares for you.
Really thankyou.

Especially to:
Winteng- For being there all the time i was unhappy, giving hugs, & listening to me. The meals i had with really made my day. Thankyou for being there, Loveyou.
ChunHeng & Kangrui- constantly asking if i was okay, really thankyou.
Pohee- Ahbaooo! Thankyou, & stop being upset!
Weiquan- Thanks for the book & everything!
Constance- Thankyou for helping me analyse everything.
Cinderella's maid- Thankyou for being there when i cried, & sorry if i scared you! LOL.

There's many many many, including Kelly, the girls, Regina, Felicia, Andrienn & many.

I smileeee!

2009-04-04T22:54:00.004+08:00

I'm happy!
Serious, not faking.
Back to school tmr.

--

There's this guy in fb,
He talked to me the other day, saying: you look like my dog.
Then when i wanted to reply, he was gone.
Just now, he talked to me again,
He seemed to have forgotten what he said to me.
He said: Do you believe money can buy happiness?
I said: No, you're?
Then he said: I'm a guy with no money, no gf, no anything.
I thought: [thought you had a dog?]
I replied: Thought you said i looked like your dog? What a coincidence, I think you look like my cat. [LOL]
Then he asked: Do you have boyfriend?
I said: No, but i do have a cat. [HAHAHAHAHAHAH!]
Then he went on asking stupid things like: Can i meet you, why cannot meet you?

Then he was so fking rude, i shoot him like crazy!
He said:
i am a virgin
i curious ab sex
can u let me see ur cheebye pic

I replied:
oh my god!
curious cat!
so pathetic,

He: ?

I said:
but i think there's some place called geylang
you can go there,
but i think you wont be able to pay

He: ?

I said:
oh, pathetic curious cat,
i'm teaching you,
internet is not a place to ask all this.
go geylang.
got so many for you to ask.
but need pay la.
i think you wont be able to pay up.
that's why i'm asking you to ask your mother.

Amazing eh?
I didnt scold him at all,
No vulgarities, nothing!

But he got more & more irritating,
I found it impossible to communicate without using caps!
But still, i didnt use vulgarities.
LOL!

Him:
u tell me cheebye hole where...?

Me:
ASK YOUR MOTHER!
OH, YOUR MOTHER CURIOUS CAT ALSO?
WHY NVER TEACH YOU?

He said:
i go geylang later and fuck cheebye

I said:
go la!must pay one hor!

Him:
i wan take my camera and take cheebye pic
i want to see cheebye hole at where

Me:
i didn't know cats can own cameras

Him:
teach me cannot meh

Me:
why should i teach a CAT?
& remember to pay up after sex

Him:
u make me angry
now i feel like fucking u

Me:
thats your problem
i'll no longer entertain you
thankyou for wasting my time
goodbye CURIOUS CAT!

Then i went to his profile,
& realised i'm not the only one who scolded him
LOL
Ahbao scolded him also.
His name is Chong Tony Tony
Dont accept his friend request!

2009-04-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去...

I fell

2009-04-03T16:54:00.005+08:00

Seriously out of luck kay?

Went out to meet Winteng just now & guess how lucky i was?

I fell down while chasing the bus.

Cause Winteng was running beside me,

Then she cut in & i fell.

So bloody fking paiseh.

At the big S. bus stop.
But she saw how strong i was,
I held back my tears k.
I swear it was really really really x 10000000000 painful.
& i washed it with soap!

Girl, dont say sorry anymore! :D

This is it:

I think seriously shouldn't have stepped out of my house,
Cause i saw pple i shouldn't see at amkhub.
I saw Shermin then she screamed: ORH HOR! Nver go school!
LOL.
Then i saw classmates at bus stop.
Melissa gave me the 'whatthefuck you doing here' face.

But i enjoyed today!
With Winteng, we'll wait for the Teenage mag alright!
Thankyou!

Thankyou Mummy for understanding.
& thanks for the talk.

Off-day

2009-04-03T09:45:00.007+08:00

Didn't attend school today,
Because i thought i needed a break, from schoolwork & people.
But i'm feeling much better now.
I woke up this morning,
To find that i was the only one at home.
Walked around the house & thought alot.
Blasted the music, happy songs okay.

First thing i saw when i woke up was,
The last person who left the house left the kitchen lights on.
& i assumed it's my sis.
Now i understand why my mother got so angry,
Whenever i leave house without closing the windows.

For some reason,
I feel that today's a time for me to update a proper post with pictures.
So here they are!

This girl's really great!
Everytime i talk to her,
I feel so much happier.
How i wish i could sit with her now.
But i'm not saying that i dont like sitting with Felicia & Kally.
Different things kay.

April fools' day:
Had real fun in 407 making a fool out of teachers & ourselves as well.
I feel lucky that i'm in 407.
Recess was great as well,
Playing a fool with the girls.
22, 32, 42... 102 [inside joke]

Lunch with Winteng,
The day it all started.
Then i felt the sudden urge to meet Winteng.
Msg-ed her, & dated her out before others do.
We have amazing telepathy.

She called me this morning & asked: you still sleeping?
Then i was really shocked,
How did she know that i skipped school?
True friends have telepathy i guess?

--

Study session at Jenna's house.
Her rabbit's really cute.

I shall find something & do now.
Might be meeting Wt later.
Maybe i shall go take a walk now.
Byeeee!

2009-04-02T20:58:00.002+08:00

Horoscope for today:

Overview
Your deepest mind is fully active today and it may cause you to take some actions that strike others as bizarre or inexplicable. Don't bother trying to explain just now -- things make sense later.

You've got a lot on your mind right now, and you feel like you don't have the right words to express yourself. You can still talk to your loved one about it, they can help you figure out what you need.

So fking true can?
I dont know, i just feel very selfish. I want him by my side & yet i dont want to get tied down. I know i need him, i dont deny this. But seriously i dont want any commitments. I know this is bad, i'm selfish. But i feel that if i dont do this, there might be regrets in future. I'm afraid things dont go well. Then both the relationship & friendship would be gone. I'm very sure i dont want this. But i dont want him to feel upset or anything either. I dont want to hurt him. He's been very nice to me. I seriously dont want to be such a bitch by doing this. I really want to sort it out, but i just couldn't get the words out. I dont know how to put it. I cant seem to say anything other than 'i dont know'. I'm really afraid. Why did i have to make him so happy & then bring him down? It's really my fault. I'm sorry.

Why are so many things coming at one go?
What makes people so sure that i can take it?
I really want to be strong & face everything that comes.
But it's not easy, at least not as easy as i thought.
I really dont want to face all these at all. right now.
To be honest,
I cant take it, i really dont think i'm that strong.
I dont want to let myself get affected,
I dont want to cry.

I really need Winteng's hug right now.

Kwanwei, be strong.

Sorry

2009-03-31T17:43:00.002+08:00

I hate myself for only knowing how to cry.

The feeling sucks.
The thought of him not being there for me anymore.

Highlight for words

2009-03-31T16:56:00.004+08:00

I'm really really sorry.
I didn't want this to happen either.
You say you dont blame me,
But i just feel guilty.
How would someone not feel guilty?
I know he's doing this for a reason,
But i feel very bad.
I've told him many many times that you're my friend.
I wont do such things to make my friend sad.
But he wouldn't care.
He doesn't care at all.
I have seriously come to this point.
Where i dont know how to respond,
How to react,
Or how to be myself in front of you.
Because of all the guilty-ness & all.
I feel like running away.
Yeah,
I'm really really sorry.

I swear i'm okay.
I'm strong!
I seriously am not in the mood.
But feel like blogging anyway.
Asked WinTeng out after school.
I wanted to let the afternoon cheer me up.
We went over to some 500plus block.
& had BotakJones for lunch.
Eventually, turned out better after talking & talking with her.
Ate their very big portions of food.
Didn't finish,
So it ended up as Winteng's dinner.
Stayed till 4plus,
& i walked her home.
I felt that my walking craze was acting up again.
So i walked home.
All the way from 500plus back home.
Had my music for company & i did not feel bored at all.
The sudden urge to call _____ disappeared.
I know i shouldn't depend on _____ all the time.

I'm home now.
Alone.
Exactly what i wanted.
Thankyou for giving me the time to think by myself.

I love Sherlyn for teaching me how to make double stars.
I love Pohee & Jasmine for talking with me.
I love Winteng for being there.
I love this very special person..

Please Let me go.

2009-03-30T22:07:00.002+08:00

Ohmygod,
Please stop giving me all these hints.
I really dont wish to know.
I know it's all true,
But please dont make me face it.
How i wish i wasn't able to see all this.

--

Why wont you admit it?
That she really needs you, & return back to her?
You're really making her feel so miserable.
& by telling me all this,
You're only making me feel guilty and sorry towards her.
Why wont you see that she the right one?

--

I'm going crazzzy.

Proper Updates Soon!

2009-03-30T21:30:00.001+08:00

I'll update longer posts,
Soooon!
With pictures, i promise!

Mental Devices

2009-03-27T17:00:00.002+08:00

I have a mental device,
Best friend has a mental device,
He has a mental device too!

Mental devices are super useful,
You can read what's in people's brains!
Really!
Oh yeah,
& you can detect it if someone's lying to you too!
Which is so fking coooool~

♥ Things aren't that bad after all!

2009-03-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

Jealousy won't work, i know.